Thursday, October 1, 2009

all bout her...

she just simply wear on the braps shirt.. voir jeans...
grab the room key, handphone w910i, k750i and b.u.m purse..
all were put in the bag...
she takes a look at the room...
ok, time to go...
she takes the shoes under the bed...
hush puppies.. a gift from someone...

one step out of the room...
she locks the door...
n starts to walk...
its just a slow step that bring thousand of meanings...
she's just simply can walk alone...
no need a company...

she cross the road..
seeing a high building in front..
faculty of civil engineering...
she continues the weak steps...

she's just a simple girl...
never know what she's up to...
she just wanna continue the life...
try to be hard...
facing everything...

she push the lift button...
5th floor...
waiting...

nothing in her mind...
as empty as her heart...
she walk inside the lift...
less than 1 minute...
she arrived.. floor 5..
she step out...

continue the weak steps...
walk along the corridor...
passed the faculty of medicine..faculty of mechanical engineering...science n technology building...
and at last..
faculty of electrical engineering...
once again...
she push the lift button...
floor 18...

she waits...
wait...
n wait...

then the lift is opened...
she continues the journey....
and at last...
floor 18...

she stands at the balcony...
seeing the view of shah alam...
uitm...

nothing can understand her...
nothing...
she never know who is she...
just follow the flow of the life...

never know want she really want...

she sees everything...
the gorgeous designed building.. faculties of engineering..
section 7..
but nothing comes up in her mind...

all the views...
make her heart feel peacefully...
free...
it's just the place where she can let everything go..
the problems..
the burdens....

she looks down...
18 floors...
she closes the eyes....
feeling like she's flying down...

but she realises...
she have no strength to do so...
she's tired...
tired try to understand people...
tired to follow what people ask her to...
tired to continue the life with the way he dont want to...
she's tired doing what she's doing now...
she's tired....

but nobody understand her...
it just the place where she can let everything go...
floor 18...

she's confused.. blur.. lost..
until now..the moment she types this..~

1 comment:

tinta said...

salam..
never give up..
even whole world never understand ur feeling..
even nobody want to appreciate you..
remember that Allah always with you..He never leave u..wait for u to come more close to Him..

open your heart to His 'nur'..u will find that u are the most lucky girl in the world..